“W w w w w w w”, Owen repeated to me over and over again. We listened to the alphabet song this evening, but W was not the letter of choice earlier on. He goes through moments where he doesn’t want me to sing and other times if I don’t sing on cue he will scream. It keeps me on my toes. He kept sticking his finger on my mouth, trying to get me to sing, the only thing my mouth was full of food. He doesn’t get that I can’t always do exactly what he wants me to do at exactly that moment. It’s hard to explain to him. It’s the same with his tablet. When the battery is out and it needs to be charged he wants it on the charger instantly. If I have my hands full he will still try to hand it to me, screaming sometimes about the battery. If I lay the tablet down and don’t immediately put it on the charger the screams start as well. I remind myself again about one day at a time. He has learned so much and his words are forming. It’s still hard sometimes to realize that he can’t grasp certain concepts. I try to find examples to explain why certain steps have to take place, but he doesn’t learn completely by that process. It’s something he has to do over and over to understand it. He kept me smiling today. The past few weeks have felt heavy to me, nothing in particular, but everything together. And as much as he’s had a few moments he really has been amazing in these circumstances. I started crying at the table earlier this week. He had been screaming seconds before and he walked over and gave me “big hug”. These are the moments that make my heart burst with love. He gets it. He sees it. He understands it. Never give up. Some days feel impossible. Some days feel like no progress is being made, but remember the sun continues to shine. Find your happiness, be inspired by the world, and know that you can make a difference. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.