Knew Sunday

Happy New Year. Owen slept until 7:30 am. Let’s go ahead and celebrate that right there. The day feels heavy. It’s a new year so I’m trying to focus on the new part of that but it feels heavy. We have been sick for days and days and days. I’m hoping that tomorrow we feel more like ourselves and can get out and about. I have been trying not to reference any of the days right now. I did tell him it was January so he may be on to me. I wish it was easier but he gets upset about the days of the week and our routine is already so messed up. I didn’t want him to think he was missing church today even though I think he knows he missed church. My heart aches about all of this. He just doesn’t feel like it’s completely out of his system yet, nor mine. He’s had a good day but we both seemed very tired. I had to reset the password for one of my emails but I wasn’t thinking that it was also associated with YouTube. Owen brought me his tablet and he had deleted YouTube. I didn’t make the connection that the email was for YouTube at the time when he brought it to me. He wanted me to type in “YouTube” so he could reinstall it. He deleted it because he knew it wasn’t working right and wanted it reinstalled thinking it would work better. Later he brought the tablet back to me and showed me the settings section for the apps. It finally dawned on me it wasn’t connecting so I signed it back into my email. Then he realized the microphone wasn’t working and he took me back to the settings but he didn’t know how to turn it on. It amazes me how he figured all of this out. He knew there were problems even if he didn’t know all the solutions he sure tried to figure it all out. The day felt long but also went by quickly. He didn’t really seem like he had much energy today. I guess I didn’t have much either. I’m thankful he has still been eating. He read a lot and played in his room. He sat with me some and we worked on his exercises. I also talked to him more about his choices and that he has to allow others to make choices too. He was watching an Elmo video and talking about his pants. I said Elmo is in all red. He said no but I went on. I wanted to make sure he understood he liked Elmo and wanted to watch him but Elmo liked to wear red pants. Technically I think he is just red but I don’t even know how to explain he’s a character so I stuck with he’s wearing red pants. After a few minutes, we moved on to Mickey. He agreed he didn’t have blue pants on either and he likes him. I’m trying to build on these visuals of the characters and people he likes that don’t wear blue pants. I hope it helps us move forward. I’m thankful he fell asleep easily tonight. He covered himself with his blanket and he lay there talking to me and making connection after connection to things. His teeth are still very much a concern. I’m sure he feels even more with them right now since he has had all the drainage. He said, “lose a tooth.” I said, “your tooth is coming in.” He said, “bike is coming in it’s got pedals I can ride with pedals.” His bike is supposed to arrive sometime in January. I can’t wait until it gets here. I pray tomorrow is a good day for us. I hope that we can go do things tomorrow and get this year started with some fun. I’m thankful for all the connections and his amazing smile. We sang together and that was music for my heart. Find your song and let it bless your soul, then share it with the world and watch your heart grow. Smiles to all and donut daze!