Breakfast seemed to be never-ending. And he requested multiple breakfasts over several hours. He was ready to go to grandma’s house but he was also ready to eat. We finally got ready and headed out.
As I walked to my car I saw a lady walking her dog. She was very close to the corner where years ago Owen saw a lady standing with a dog. He will still stand at our window and scream about the lady and the dog. It has been years and it is still causing him to have meltdowns. I turned and went the other way because I didn’t want him to see the wrong lady with the wrong dog in the right corner. This would have started a day of memories and meltdowns. It breaks my heart knowing something like this can cause him so much stress and anxiety.
On the way to Grandma’s house, we sang Row Row Row Your Boat. We sang it a couple of times in English and then he sang it in other languages. He told me he was singing it in Spanish but I think it was “Thaiwand” as he calls it. I’m not sure what other languages he was singing it in. I dropped him off and came home.
I went back to pick him up and I ate dinner with them only Owen doesn’t want to sit with us while we’re eating. He had helped my mom make the cornbread by stirring it with her and he watched her put different things on the stove to cook. Sometimes it’s a hard process for him to understand that I’m there while it’s his time with his grandma.
He started talking about us going bowling tomorrow, and I told him that we could if he slept tonight. We left after dinner and on the way home I was hoping that we would sing Row Row Row Your Boat one more time but he wasn’t interested in singing. On the ride home it was hard for him. He has cycled back to where red lights cause him anxiousness and he will scream while acting like he wants to sit on the other side.
We got home and he ate some of his dinner and I could tell he was exhausted. And I know I sure am. He talked a lot again about going bowling tomorrow and my response was he has to sleep tonight. He was asleep as soon as he went to his bed.
I think about the past year and I see how much he’s grown. I pray for a wonderful 2024 and all that it has to offer us. He’s changed so much from that little boy that he seemed to be just yesterday.
Begin the new year with hope and understanding that we can make the change in the world happen. Find your strength and show the world what you’ve got. Smiles to all and donut daze!