The screaming. The constant voicing of his emotions through the high-pitched tones echoes through my mind. Owen gets super excited about something he is doing and this guttural scream comes out. It roars through my head. He’s happy as a lark about whatever he is doing but he won’t use his words. The sounds he made tonight are part of the joy he is expressing for the victory the little panda is experiencing on his screen. My reminder to use his words is met with more screams and an “I love you” over his shoulder as he laughs at the panda again. I have to focus. The older he gets the louder the noises are. The jumping makes the whole house shake. Having a house with a basement does not help the echoes and there are places in our house where he loves jumping and screaming more. Maybe it’s louder echoes or the way the walls vibrate that keeps him jumping in those places. He went to sleep relatively quickly last night with the new CG plan in place. I figured Curious George needed a fancy name or for me to use his initials or something. Whatever he is called he is helping. Owen did wake up about halfway through the night but went back to sleep quickly once he got into bed with me. When morning came he didn’t want me to get up to go to the bathroom. I tried to explain my body doesn’t give me a choice. Plus, I needed my coffee. We had a good morning and it went by quickly and in no time he was off to school with a fast lesson of words in Arabic. French and Arabic seem to be the go-to languages right now. I’m not sure why he decided this but French was a big deal for him today. It seems like he will be reading to me in other languages soon. I’m pretty sure he can do it now but he is not completely confident in his reading ability but the more books we read in English I’m sure it will increase for the other languages as well. I’m starting to see more connections and an understanding of bodily functions. This feels huge and I’m so glad. It’s all the stuff I know happens but I don’t want to think about it. It took years to get through potty training and sometimes it’s still a rocky road so for him to be making more connections is glorious. His teeth coming in have probably moved up to the top choice of what he is concerned about. I know he feels every movement and he tells me every time. I am trying to convince him not to bite his tablet. I keep telling him if he stops biting it that will help them to not fall out. I’m never sure what to attempt to explain and what’s going to make it more complicated. I think his teeth and my explaining anything make it more complicated. I’m thankful his dentist is amazing with him and as importantly with me. Bedtime was surprisingly fast. Once I said to him that he would not get his tablet tomorrow if he did not get ready for bed, he immediately turned off the lights, got ready for bed, and was asleep in no time. I’m thankful for his growth and how far he has come. Every day we have a choice to push forward. The hardest part is the hardest part. Some days the challenges feel overwhelming, but we must push through and find our happiness. Share your story, share mine, and understand that we will get through this together. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.