Owen slept until after seven and I slept until about five. I’ll take it. It was the kind of yucky weather that he likes now. The rain fit my mood but it was probably the first morning I hadn’t cried in a week. That was my victory for the day. And as the day wound up I’m glad I had my victory early.
He woke up and came straight to me. Normally he says “tablet” or “school” and then his good morning. Today he said, “Good morning I’m fine how are you,” then talked about church but he waited for me to hug him. He ran off to go to the bathroom, focused on Tuesday not today.
His Tuesday loop was on because he was worried he wasn’t going to ride the bus home since I told him he was going to the dentist. I assured him that he would ride the bus home and then we would leave for the dentist. I keep praying they don’t cancel the appointment for whatever reason because that would be extremely hard on him.
He kept bringing his tablet to me wanting me to play his games for him. He likes watching the characters run instead of playing the game himself. I want him to do it to work on his hand-eye coordination and his focus.
His Tuesday loop was also because of his excitement about going to the dentist. It was all dentist talk all morning. I have tried to make any of our appointments with health professionals important to him. I want him to understand they are there to help us and we can talk to them about anything.
He went through all the moments of what his dentist would do and talk to him about. He wants her to clean his “lobster tooth.” When he is there he generally calls his teeth “Spider-Man teeth” and when he is home they are lobster teeth I believe because of a video he watches with a lobster in it. He can’t wait to see her.
His anxiousness has been heightened even more lately. I suppose like most everything he goes through cycles with it. I have been researching how our body processes anxiety and anxiousness. This has led me to learn about the Moro reflex and how it is associated with anxiety and anxiousness. It is something that should go away in the early stages of life but doesn’t always with children with disabilities. Between introducing the Moro reflex exercises and already working on his primitive reflexes with all his therapists I feel this will help his anxiety, I pray this will help with his anxiousness.
I watched Owen open the car door as we got ready to leave for church. He gets in the car and puts on his own seatbelt now. Even though he’s been doing it for a while now this still brings such a thankful feeling to my soul. This is another step in the progress towards his independence.
I leaned on the wall several times while we were singing at church. I prayed for God to hold me up and help me to stand strong and stay motivated in our future. The loneliness sits so strongly some days when Owen constantly yells at me or repeats every single thing he is processing hundreds of times throughout the day. I felt relief and I felt a peace wash over me. And I still didn’t cry.
When we left church it was like the day that would never end. I have to say it was every single emotion and then some but I still didn’t cry. He wanted to ride his bike and go to the park at our church. It was raining and this brought him great delight and thankfulness once again to my heart since rain is no longer causing meltdowns.
When we left church he insisted on Burger King on the way home but told me he also wanted to go to McDonald’s. I told him he had to choose. BK it was. He told me he didn’t want to go by the bridge flags and I said we are not going the long way home. He said, “Close my eyes.” I’m not sure which one of us he was referring to but I was hoping it was him.
The afternoon was full of one thing after another. I still didn’t cry. I still wanted to. The screaming, meltdowns, and repetitive behavior get me some days and today was one of them. I told him that he was amazing and could work through any of this. I always want him to know that he can accomplish anything he sets his mind to. When you accomplish something that's good for your heart it's good for the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
He woke up and came straight to me. Normally he says “tablet” or “school” and then his good morning. Today he said, “Good morning I’m fine how are you,” then talked about church but he waited for me to hug him. He ran off to go to the bathroom, focused on Tuesday not today.
His Tuesday loop was on because he was worried he wasn’t going to ride the bus home since I told him he was going to the dentist. I assured him that he would ride the bus home and then we would leave for the dentist. I keep praying they don’t cancel the appointment for whatever reason because that would be extremely hard on him.
He kept bringing his tablet to me wanting me to play his games for him. He likes watching the characters run instead of playing the game himself. I want him to do it to work on his hand-eye coordination and his focus.
His Tuesday loop was also because of his excitement about going to the dentist. It was all dentist talk all morning. I have tried to make any of our appointments with health professionals important to him. I want him to understand they are there to help us and we can talk to them about anything.
He went through all the moments of what his dentist would do and talk to him about. He wants her to clean his “lobster tooth.” When he is there he generally calls his teeth “Spider-Man teeth” and when he is home they are lobster teeth I believe because of a video he watches with a lobster in it. He can’t wait to see her.
His anxiousness has been heightened even more lately. I suppose like most everything he goes through cycles with it. I have been researching how our body processes anxiety and anxiousness. This has led me to learn about the Moro reflex and how it is associated with anxiety and anxiousness. It is something that should go away in the early stages of life but doesn’t always with children with disabilities. Between introducing the Moro reflex exercises and already working on his primitive reflexes with all his therapists I feel this will help his anxiety, I pray this will help with his anxiousness.
I watched Owen open the car door as we got ready to leave for church. He gets in the car and puts on his own seatbelt now. Even though he’s been doing it for a while now this still brings such a thankful feeling to my soul. This is another step in the progress towards his independence.
I leaned on the wall several times while we were singing at church. I prayed for God to hold me up and help me to stand strong and stay motivated in our future. The loneliness sits so strongly some days when Owen constantly yells at me or repeats every single thing he is processing hundreds of times throughout the day. I felt relief and I felt a peace wash over me. And I still didn’t cry.
When we left church it was like the day that would never end. I have to say it was every single emotion and then some but I still didn’t cry. He wanted to ride his bike and go to the park at our church. It was raining and this brought him great delight and thankfulness once again to my heart since rain is no longer causing meltdowns.
When we left church he insisted on Burger King on the way home but told me he also wanted to go to McDonald’s. I told him he had to choose. BK it was. He told me he didn’t want to go by the bridge flags and I said we are not going the long way home. He said, “Close my eyes.” I’m not sure which one of us he was referring to but I was hoping it was him.
The afternoon was full of one thing after another. I still didn’t cry. I still wanted to. The screaming, meltdowns, and repetitive behavior get me some days and today was one of them. I told him that he was amazing and could work through any of this. I always want him to know that he can accomplish anything he sets his mind to. When you accomplish something that's good for your heart it's good for the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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