Owen woke early but mouse quiet is what I’m going to call him, especially since he was watching Mickey Mouse on YouTube. I heard him but since he had gone to the bathroom and went right to his computer I thought I would let him have fun and maybe catch a few more moments of sleep. That’s not exactly how it works but pretend sleep is better than no sleep. Listening always for the squeals of my child is what I do. The happy, concerned, upset, anxious, frustrated, and every other type of squeal is what I listen for. My favorite though is the squeal of delight when he figures out something or finds exactly what he is looking for. I fixed his breakfast and while we were waiting for it to cook I got our yogurt ready. It’s the easiest way to give him our supplements. He loves the peach flavor but I only had strawberry left. He always says “achoo” when he is eating yogurt, especially when it’s not one of his favorite flavors. I try to give him his favorite foods but I also want him to understand that sometimes we have to try other foods and do other things that we may not always want to do. Food and routine roll around in my head like a ball in a pinball machine. Sometimes the answer for one is in the other. This is probably why I overthink everything. I have always been so careful in making sure Owen tries different foods and brands so that he doesn’t get stuck in one mode with food. But with routine, it’s always felt so much bigger because of the way he handles his emotions that are attached to it and the words that become part of his repetitive behaviors. I walk in circles hoping for answers and guidance to give my son the structure he needs but helping him learn to be flexible. The rain will be rolling through at different times in the next few days. As soon as he saw the grass and car were wet the squeals began. He didn’t want to open the car door because his hand would get wet. It amazes me and baffles me how he loves baths and being in the pool but washing his hands and rain can cause meltdowns and frustration for him. He did great at church and then we went to ride his bike. He wants to go in the opposite direction of the way the park is. I can’t have him go that way because of the church traffic though. He does not like the word “no” and who does? The good news is he quickly realized he was not going to get away with it and went to swing on the playground. When we left we got his requested lunch and headed home. We had a quiet afternoon. I told him that we were going to the park with our friends tomorrow. He said no and then I told him we were going to breakfast first but he thought with his grandma and I told him no with me. I don’t think he’s changed his mind to go to the park yet but I am going to try to get him to go. I don’t think he has to go someplace every day, but I do feel as though he should have places to go a couple of times a week. I have several other fun activities planned for him and hopefully, he will want to do some of them as the week moves forward. It didn’t take him long to fall asleep at all and I’m not far behind him. Even though there were a few hitches in our giddyup, Owen had a great day. He laughed when I started singing with his tablet, and I could tell it surprised him that I knew the song. I love his laughter, and it puts this song in my heart. Find your joy and share it with the world. Your joy will create sunshine in other places. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.