You listen for the calm outside, inside, wherever and whenever you can find it. You also listen for every noise, every single one of them. I woke several times last night and each time I tried to determine if it was me or Owen that woke me up. This time it was me. He slept until almost six. I’ll take it. Coffee was on my mind and I had to get up. Before I finished that thought I heard him. He went to the bathroom, got his tablet, and headed toward me. “Friday be with mommy tomorrow,” he said. I told him we should concentrate on today. He told me it was the twentieth and started going through the rest of the days. He understands the days of the week and he is starting to understand the months but it’s hard to explain that all of the months have different amounts of days. He ran off after smelling my head and putting my hair in his mouth. These behaviors are starting to ramp up again. I got up and started my day. Owen wanted no lights on. I could tell it was going to be a high-sensory day even though he was relatively calm. I opened the refrigerator to pour cream into my coffee. Before I could finish he closed the refrigerator. I told him I left the door open so I could see my coffee mug since he kept turning off the lights. He turned on the overhead light and then as soon as I was done he turned it off again. Siri played a big part in our morning. He asked her to translate tons of words into other languages. He loves listening to her. After he repeated the words he would ask for something new. He then moved on to ask her to play music. We got ready to go to his therapy. He was very hyper but his therapists said he did well. When I was talking to his last therapist he was smelling and biting my hair. He was pushing hard into me. I could tell he was still in sensory overload. I should have taken him straight home but I wanted to show him some of the places that he has been talking about that he found on the maps app. He got really upset and had one of the biggest meltdowns he has had in a very long time. He got upset because I didn’t cross the railroad tracks first and go by a church that I didn’t even know was anywhere near it. From there it was downhill. We came home with him in a complete meltdown. We sat in the car before we could even go in. It’s one more reason I want a garage so I can help him through the process on his time. If he can sit with our all the distractions of our neighborhood it helps. To get him out of the car I told him we are going to see our friend tomorrow. He was able to process it and started to move forward. My emotions have to stay calm in those moments so that he stays calmer. My heart breaks that something like turning in the wrong direction upsets him so much. The rest of the night was much calmer for him. He took a long bath and that relaxed him. He fell asleep almost instantly and I pray that he sleeps through the night. I hold on to the growth and working on finding the steps to take him out of his comfort zone without causing the stress for him. He was excited about going to the park with our friend tomorrow and that makes my heart happy. Find what makes your heart sing out in joy and share it with the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.