I woke at five with a start. Owen was not next to me. I laid there for a minute but my bladder got the best of me. I checked on him while I was up and then went back to bed. I was shocked he was still asleep. I fell back asleep and about an hour later he came to find me. I was able to convince him to get into bed and we slept another hour, kinda. He wanted his tablet and to go to the park with his friend. He needs to keep that routine. I let him try pomegranate juice and to my surprise, he finished the little bit I put in his cup. I thought for sure he would spit it out. “Baby scissors” has become one of his go-to phrases. It’s like so many of his catchphrases and I have to figure out what it references. He uses it when we go to different places or talks about things we are doing. “No zoo today see the kangaroo turn right lion baby scissors”. There’s a message in those words from him but I’m not sure of the connection yet. It’s like when I finally figured out he thought his toes were called “birthday candle”. Today was filled with those emotional moments that make me want to cry the river of tears that don’t always fall. We went to the park and he had a lot of fun. Especially trying to scare me when he was on the slide. The trip home was once again of epic proportions. Why everything has to be something I don’t know. I spoke with his behavioral specialist today. We are trying to find ways to comfort him and prepare him for his day. Knowing his schedule will help him but he does not connect well to the calendar or other visual keys. We still had to leave to go to his therapy appointment. Emotionally I didn’t want to go. I was not prepared for more screaming but we had to go. Thankfully we got there and back without another meltdown even though he tried. My awful singing got us home again. Somehow he was having a conversation with Alexa in Chinese before bedtime or at least I think it was Chinese. When I asked Owen he told me “Chinese Portuguese Arabic Spanish”. So maybe he was having multiple conversations because when I asked Alexa she said she spoke in all of them. So basically they were keeping a secret from me and all I know is Owen understood it. I pray he sleeps through the night again. And I pray for a calm day tomorrow. I’m thankful for his smile. Today is the first day of the rest of your life so dream big and live life forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.