Some days the coffee isn’t strong enough. Everything has a place and everyone must follow the rules until the rules can be broken and we can change. I had a parent-teacher conference by FaceTime with his teacher. I didn’t think this through. This meant his teacher, albeit a video of her, was in our house. She’s supposed to be at school not in our home. That’s a rule. And a rookie mistake as I like to call them. He was anxious when I was on the phone with her, trying to turn it off. He squealed the whole time and his foot was a’tapping. I hadn’t even thought that through. I could have gone to school but I thought we would do FaceTime instead. I tell myself he needs to get used to things being different but it can also affect how the rest of our day goes. She had wonderful things to say about Owen and very proud of his progress. Luckily, when we hung up he was calm again but asking about his teacher he hadn’t seen in a week. I was able to take it all in. My sweet baby O is thriving and that’s what matters. One step at a time for both of us on this journey. Last night Owen fell asleep before seven. He asked for a bath very early on but then he laid down on his beanbag pillow. Within a few minutes, he was asleep. So what do I do. He is doing really great about going to the bathroom when he’s awake but during the night he doesn’t understand to get up if he has to go. Most nights he stays dry but it’s still a process. I let him lay there for several hours until I tried to change him and move him. He fought me in his sleep. He finally woke enough for me to change him and get him to bed. He slept all night. The sickness is leaving his body but I think the lack of sleep finally caught up to him. I took those hours when he fell asleep and accomplished many things. The quiet gave me time to think. Owen is always in constant motion and never a silent moment. And some days the accomplishments are amazing and the coffee is just right. Learning to be kind to myself is one of the hardest parts of this journey through life. Find your happiness and know that you can accomplish great things. Positive words and positive actions equal a positive life. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.