Today felt like a big deal. It actually rocked. Sure there were a few moments, who doesn’t have a few moments but wow, oh wow, did the day feel huge. Owen’s penguin rollercoaster toy came in. I left it in the box so he could see it. I am still emotional about the pure joy I have from seeing him so excited about a toy. He asked for a toy. That still has tears floating in my eyes. I put the box on the table and didn’t tell him I did it. I should have put it together but “penguins in the box come”. I wanted to see the reaction he had and what he would do. In a little while I heard his words “penguins in the box come”. He ran to me with the box. This in itself was another huge step. I took it back to the table and I opened the box. I then took out all the pieces. I had to put the batteries in it and attach the slides. He stood patiently next to me holding the little packet of penguins. When I put all the pieces together he handed me the bag. “Open it”, he said. I opened them and put one on the track to make sure I set it up correctly. He wanted me to keep adding them but I explained that I wanted to make sure it worked. Again the patience amazed me. Once I let the first one go through I handed him all three and the party began. He was thrilled, running all over the house, talking about the “penguins in the box come”. The joy in my heart is making it beat stronger. He asked for a toy that he wanted and he was over the moon when he got it. Plus, the big thing, he played with it. I try not to let the sadness wash over me about him not being able to tell me other things he’s needed or wanted over the years but instead I’m letting this moment win. I’m staring at the three little penguins on the rollercoaster wishes they understood how much they mean to a little boy and his momma. The day started off big. He woke up and was completely interacting with me, answering questions about all the words he was reciting from the alphabet. I said, do you know what a kitten turns into after he said, “k is for kitten”. He then said, “cat” spelling each of the letters and saying, “meow”. As he fell asleep tonight he was reciting the same letters he woke up saying and I was reminded that life is truly what you make it. As my sweet baby O fell asleep his words came to mind, “are you happy today”. Yes baby, I am. Find your joy and know that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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