When someone else’s words determine your feelings move on from that moment, let those emotions go and be strong. Or so, that’s what I keep telling myself today. The walk of a special needs parent can feel very lonely. And then add in the opinions of the world and you must push forward. Every expert has an opinion and from there you have to figure out what is right for your child. You are the one that walks with them daily and holds their hand through life. Owen has grown. Every day I focus on his accomplishments. I struggle, I get sad, I have a thousand questions, but I focus on his accomplishments. I let him know he is doing amazing and I try to be kind to myself. The woulda, coulda, shouldas will get you every tine if you let them. When I picked Owen up today, as I was putting him in the car it was raining. He held out his hand to catch a drop of rain. He said, “it’s raining”. Glorious words and actions on an extremely hard day. He held out his hand to feel the rain, to catch it. To me that was the best example of a connection to earth, to our world, to our surroundings. He held out his hand to catch the falling water. He does it in the bathtub and now he caught it from the sky. His hands, his body, his mind, don’t always work together as one. It takes great effort for him to use his hands. He is learning to use utensils and write. These are hard things for Owen. About a year ago I started painting with Owen doing a hand over hand method so that he could feel the motions, strengthen his hands, and hopefully give him a different type of connection to his body. We are still learning and growing in our art, but Owen asks to paint every day. This is not a one-size fits all world. Be bold, be beautiful, be you. Everyone is unique. Dance under the clouds, rejoice in the sunset, and know that through rain growth will come. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.