I’m learning to breathe through the moments of life that are challenges as well as our victories. Two years ago I didn’t know how much my world would change. And now the memories flood through my life constantly. It still feels raw and all too real. I pray, I breathe, I repeat. Owen slept until six. He came to me so happy and I gave him a big ole hug. He giggled and squeezed me back. The smile that washed over his face is what can always wash away any of the grumpies I may have. I said, “Do you know how much I love you” and he said, “I know.” He was ready to go to church and he told me he wanted to see Santa and the fish. I told him we could go see Santa when he wanted to go again. He decided he wanted to have the leftover pizza for breakfast but I said how about we have it for lunch. He said, “Sausage dogs please two.” He told me he wanted a cookie hat and a cross hat choosing two he has learned about in an app he loves to play. Not only are his words becoming repetitive again but now he is going back through a lot of the games, toys, and videos he hasn’t played with in a while. He wanted to see the penguins in one of the Super Mario games. I’m still not sure which game it’s in. It is amazing how he makes all the connections to toys, videos, and even places he wants to see or has visited. He listened to all the steps I gave him to get dressed for church and we were out the door. We got out to the car and he wanted to tell me how to drive. It’s interesting to me how he chooses to give directions to each person a little differently. Sometimes or I suppose most times it feels like it is more about the reactions of the person he is talking to that he wants to feel. Plus a mix of his own emotions and needing confirmation of his agenda which goes back to the rules and routine. He enjoyed church and then we went to see Santa and the fish. He was so excited to see Santa. There wasn’t much of a crowd so Owen was able to see Santa right away. They took an amazing picture of them together and then he got to “lay down lay dooownnn” on the ground near him. This made him extremely happy and then he sat on Santa’s lap again. He wanted to unwrap what he thought was a present but it was just the block for him to step up on. We then walked to see the fish and he was so excited to see one of his favorite ones. He then wanted to “lay down” once again. He wasn’t really convinced it was time to go but I told him that we could come back another day. We came home and he ate his pizza for lunch. We had a great rest of our day. There were only a few bumpy moments but I’m thankful for all his progress. You never really know what a dream looks like until it comes true. Believe in the miracle yet to come. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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