Owen woke this morning and was really calm. I figured one of us needs to be. My calm technically has to be there even when I’m not feeling calm because any emotion is an emotion for Owen. He can sense any change in me quicker than I can and if I breathe differently he starts wanting me to respond to him right away. Tomorrow we start doing his lessons that his teacher will provide to us. She is willing to help in any way she can with things like online chats or videos for the kids, but this is all so hard for Owen to understand. He doesn’t know why he isn’t in school and I keep trying to tell myself this is like summer, handle it like summer. Breaks are incredibly hard for him, no matter the reason, so I have to find ways to keep him focused and learning. However, when I mentioned school to him he started yelling for his teacher and asking when he was going to school. I told him we were going to work on his lessons together. Trying to explain this to him is not something he can comprehend. He started screaming louder. The more I tried to explain the louder he got. And then it was full meltdown all in less than a minute of me talking about school. His hands went to his ears, his foot started stomping the ground, and he screamed his teacher’s name over and over. I had debated whether I should say anything to him, but I wanted to also prepare him for doing the work ahead. It’s required that he do the schoolwork, and I totally agree with this, however, getting him to actually do the work in the none-school setting will be a different story. Owen associates activities with certain people or locations and his rules govern his reaction to these situations. He will use utensils for his teacher without even a consideration. When he is with me he has to be reminded constantly to do this. Writing his letters and numbers he will do easily for me, but not consistently with his teacher. I remind myself that all we can do is try and do the best that we can. I tell him all the time we are a team and we are in this together, learning as we grow. Through life’s challenges take one day at a time and know that you are not alone. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.