A very sleepy Owen was standing next to my bed right about midnight. I had been drifting in and out of sleep at that point and noises had woken me several times so I figured they did for him too. He thankfully crawled into bed with me without so much as a word and went right back to sleep. From there he slept like a rocket ship flying from planet to planet. Part of the problem I suppose is all the pillows I have on my bed but even in his bed, it seems like he continues to do flips. He didn’t wake again until six and when he did he was very calm with one thing on his mind, the pool. I opened a cabinet door to get out the ingredients for our breakfast and it squeaked. Owen was in the living room. I quickly looked at him and he didn’t move or say a word. I still get anxious about his screams when something like a door squeaks. It’s taken us years to get through this one process for him. If he wasn’t screaming about the noise he was running all through the house asking who was here or staring out the window yelling for someone to go away. There are days I still have to say to him it’s the cabinet. Any noise is a noise to him and now that I’ve had several workers at our house for different reasons he is constantly asking about noises. He also associates certain days with different work that has been done. Now he thinks the roofers come on Thursdays. One day at a time I remind myself. He asked several times about the pool but he was truly calm about it. However, when it was time to go he put no effort forward to help me get him ready. I told him that neither one of us would be wearing blue pants to the pool. I talked to him again about kindness to others and we can’t be mad at someone for not wearing blue pants. I told him that we were not going to talk about what we were wearing to the pool except our “swimming suit”. We got going and he was doing good until he saw a bus and then he started talking about “be with mommy Monday be with mommy.” He doesn’t always understand how to process time and now that it’s August he is still not seeing his teacher yet he is seeing buses driving around. How do I even explain they are preparing for the year ahead or they are doing special activities? Once we got to the pool he was in complete focus on becoming one with Spider-Man and jumping into the pool all courtesy of a video he watches. Our friends got there a few minutes after we did and then we went to the pool. As soon as Owen saw the pool he started taking off his shoes as we were walking. I’m glad I had a grip on his arm because otherwise, he would be in that pool. The splash pad was past the pool. Trying to convince him to go there instead of jumping into the pool was almost impossible but somehow I did it. He wanted in the big pool. There was no way I was going to be able to take him in the pool by myself though. There were only ladders leading into the pool and he wanted to jump. I thought I saw a kiddie pool on the other side of the big pool so my friend went over and looked while I watched the boys. Thankfully it was and we took them to it. He did extremely well and I was only slightly frazzled. And to think we are going again soon. I will be doing more research on which pools are setup to better accommodate us. We got home and he asked about the pool several times and also told me we would be home until Thursday. I don’t think he wants any more surprise trips to North Carolina. He showed me a game he was playing and said, “blue pants” referencing what the character was wearing. I said if you want to talk about blue pants you’re going to have to talk to yourself. He took the tablet and said, “we talk about blue pants.” I can tell this is going to be a long process to figure it out. I was folding laundry on my bed again and he kept running back to my room to try to throw it on the floor. I said, “I will take care of it.” He came back into my room one more time and tried to grab the clothes. He said, “take a carrot” thinking that’s what I had said, and was able to knock some on the floor. I need a laundry room. He fell asleep quickly and I pray he sleeps through the night. Today was a good day for progress. I saw the little steps that he took and they were a big deal to my heart. Be kind to your soul and be proud of the steps that keep leading you forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.