My mom always says, “life happens when you have something else planned”. Oh boy is she ever right. One day at a time seems long sometimes. How do I explain to my sweet baby O that he can’t go to school. One of the great things they are doing in our county is feeding the kids breakfast and lunch even though the schools are closed. It is being delivered by buses on the normal bus route or there are other arrangements as well. I want to cry with this alone. If we were to meet the bus to get Owen’s food then he would think he was going to get on the bus. We can’t go to his school and pick it up for the same reason. Of course, if Owen wasn’t with me it would be fine but one of the requirements is the child needs to be present. I understand the rules and I’m sure there are exceptions, but this is one of those moments that makes me realize how hard it is for Owen. When we came home today the first thing he said was “school”. I told him no he wasn’t going to school for a while. He stood there repeating “school” over and over again. Distracting him was not working. He moved on to say, “I have to go to sleep and then”. He waits for me to respond by telling him his next day's events. We go through this every day. He understands that going to sleep moves him to the next day. I’m not sure why he phrased it like that now, but I told him again he wasn’t going to school and he cried. My next words stopped him from crying, but I know he still doesn’t understand. I told him school was broken. In those words, my heart broke a little more, as well. He thrives on the routine of his world and here it is all crashing down on him. Any break is hard on him and I know we will have to work extra hard to keep him moving forward on growth. I keep going back to his last progress report when it was said that he had regressed since his holiday break and now here we are going into a longer break that might keep them out of school for the rest of the year. Then it’s summertime. I’m going to remind myself to concentrate on today and I’m listening to Owen’s laughter. That makes this momma’s heart happy. Find your happiness, make your dreams come true, and know that you are important. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.