Please Wednesday

Not so much sleep for me, but hip hip hooray Owen slept. He did wake in the middle of the night and get in bed with me, but he slept late so that works. The lights got us in a little bit of a tailspin this morning, but it didn’t last long. He wanted them to stay off, but he also ran through the house turning them on. However, my legs kept Owen laughing this morning. He follows me all through the house, falling to the ground at any moment to inspect my knees. If he’s carrying his tablet the corner immediately goes in his mouth and he giggles, staring at my legs. If he’s not carrying his tablet he will touch my knees, looking at my scars from the surgery I had as a child. This phase goes through cycles. He hadn’t done it in a while, but the last few days it’s back to knee inspection. He talks about my clothes all the time. I must have on pre-approved clothes for what I’m doing. The lounge clothes at home go through the winter to summer and summer to winter transition. Shorts and pants cause their own sets of anxiety and rules for Owen. And Owen never wants to wear pants or shorts at home. But he must wear a shirt. If I try to leave his shirt off before a bath or bedtime he will cry and scream until I put his shirt back on him. I wonder sometimes how these rules for him were set in motion; is it the way I handled something or is it the way he processes the moment. The last few days he seems very tired, but also calmer. I’m not sure if they are connected or if one is the result of the other. He’s been laughing a lot more lately, too. I love to feel those happy emotions. Owen is my world. I never imagined the emotions I would go through, but when I see the progress and the light shine in his eyes I’m thankful. See the beauty around you, let your light shine, and go after your dreams. Smiles to all and donut daze!