Four in the morning is very early to discuss breakfast but I was honestly thankful Owen slept that late. Any and all breaks in routine cause the ripple effect that makes me want to cry. It’s so incredibly hard on him. He can’t fathom how his routine is gone. My mind is already wandering to Thanksgiving and then Christmas. The breaks will be so hard on him. When he woke up he started talking about “breakfast with grandma breakfast with grandma.” He repeats it over and over and he wants me to answer something, interact somehow, or from there it spirals into a whole other dimension. I can only imagine how he is feeling when his days don’t go according to plan. He found the roads by the bus garage on YouTube and wanted me to help him look up other videos near there. It amazes me how he searches all of these videos to find the areas he is looking for. It was finally time to go to breakfast. It had been a long morning of him asking when we were going. He did great though while we were there. He ate so much and after the first few minutes, he calmed down for the rest of the time. He was very elevated today so I thought it best to stick with routine and go back home. He wanted to take a bath as soon as we got there. He told me he wanted a hermit crab and a guinea pig while he was taking his bath. He asked every few minutes until bedtime when he would be going to his grandma’s tomorrow. Pure exhaustion comes from being up at four in the morning and answering questions about the days ahead. He is already wanting it to be Sunday night so he can go to school on Monday and everything else routine. Before it was even five in the morning he wanted to know when we were going to breakfast, to confirm he was going to be at grandma’s house tomorrow, that church was still happening on Sunday, and that it was going to be bedtime on Sunday night. Each day isn’t a twenty-four-hour clock it’s a day in the history book of routine. My heart aches for my son and my tears sit in my eyes knowing that the next day off will be the same way. Maybe there’s a Curious George video that can help with breaks and that he will connect with. I tried to show him one about vacations but he wasn’t wanting to watch it with me. He has to find it on his own time. I’m praying he sleeps tonight and I know he will be happy to get his routine back in order. Celebrate your victories no matter how big or small celebrate them all. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.