Read Tuesday

Owen slept all night. Like all night. He hasn’t done that in a while so I think I was up forty-two or maybe it was forty-three times. He was in a mood but it passed quickly. He didn’t want any of the lights on but at least he was not screaming at me about them. And then he actually went and turned them on himself. He had gotten up while I was getting my coffee. I told him to go to the bathroom before he got his tablet and he turned off the light before I could say another word. I told him to turn it back on so I could finish getting my coffee. He went to the bathroom and I went to my bedroom. He turned off the light when he came out of the bathroom. Then he got his tablet and came to sit with me in my room. When I said it was time to go to school he ran to the kitchen and that’s when he turned the lights on. He told me he wanted to go to the park when he came home. He also told me he wanted to see the firefighters, look at the treasure map, and go ride the tractor. As we were putting his socks and shoes on he lifted one of the pillows on the couch and grabbed some cheese from his pizza he was eating last night. He was going to eat it before I stopped him. So how many hiding places does he have I wonder. My dream is to have a kitchen I can easily close off so he can’t run and hide food under pillows. I’m trying to figure out how this became a thing, how do I stop this thing, and why do I still have pillows on my couch if this is a thing. My mind spins trying to stay ahead of all the things I need to figure out, do, stop, fix, find, keep him from throwing away, and the list goes on. I never baby-proofed my house but here I am now wanting to get rid of every single thing so it will be easier for him. We got ready and he told me to wear my pink shoes. I didn’t want to upset him but I reminded him that winter is coming and I won’t wear my pink shoes when it rains or snows. I told him I would start wearing my boots and he said, “no.” When our morning starts I have to be careful what I say because I don’t want it to cause a meltdown in the minutes before we meet the bus. I want the morning to go as smoothly as possible. When he came home he repeated everything he wanted to do again. I told him we could do any of it. I said to him we were going on Thursday to ride the tractor after therapy but we could go again if he wanted. Once again as soon as he came inside he decided he didn’t want to go and took off his shoes. He asked for his snack and I love that he tells me what he wants now or helps me get it. It’s also why the food under the pillow thing has got me confused. He almost always has food on the table or knows where his snacks are. He’s still learning to get them for himself but he at least knows where they are and asks me for food constantly. When I told him it would be bedtime soon he wanted to wear Spider-Man. I told him I had his pajamas clean but he said, “Spider-Man hand boots” which means his costume because he has to put his feet in the boots and his hands in the gloves. I’m so happy he wants to wear them. He fell asleep quickly and I’m thankful he had a great day. One day at a time I remind myself and I’m praying he sleeps through the night. His
words and actions were amazing tonight as we sang our octopus song and did the movements. I’m very thankful. Find your inspiration, grow the possibilities, and know that you can make a huge impact in your world. Smiles to all and donut daze!