The morning seemed chaotic with a side of calm. I told Owen last night that he would not have his tablet this morning because of his behavior. He screamed at me when I told him it was bedtime. Then he ripped the tablet out of my hand and ran to the couch but he was supposed to be getting ready for his bath. It went round and round. And more behaviors once he got in bed. I’m trying to make him understand that his actions and reactions have consequences. It’s hard for me to follow through on these behavioral problems with any type of discipline because he doesn’t always understand the follow-through when it happens hours later. He slept all night if you consider after four o’clock in the morning all night long. He came to the “white bed” to tell me that he was taking his “tablet to the blue bed”. I told him no he couldn’t. He could read books. He told me he was going to turn the tv on. I once again said no. By this time I was awake enough to know I didn’t want to be awake. I told him once again to take some of his books to his room and read. He ran off and I went to the bathroom. I heard him reading The Very Hungry Caterpillar in his bed. When I came back to my bed he followed me and told me he was getting his tablet again. I told him that he was not going to have his tablet before school and we could read together. He ran to get one of his Curious George books and came to me. Before we got back to my bed he kept saying “it’s over here”. I had given him one of his new books to read and he was trying to find where it was. I wanted him to work through the conversation with me. I asked him to tell me what he was looking for and numerous other questions. He does not always know how to answer questions so this was hard for him but then he was able to tell me the name of the book he was looking for. I was very excited since it was one of his new ones. Plus it took a great amount of thought process for him to get to that point. He did amazing though and we had plenty of time still to read lots of books before school. We sat reading together, him occasionally interrupting the process to talk about our clothes. We made it through the morning and then he was off to school. When he came home from school he was calm. And hungry. He has been packing in the food lately. He had come to ask me a question and I could tell he needed to go to the bathroom. I told him to go and I would keep his tablet. This generally gets him screaming but not this time. He ran off and came back to get his tablet. He had even partially washed his hands. The rest of the night went quickly and bedtime was calmer than last night. But still very, very, very exhausting. He screams about his head being stuck and wanting the blanket that he already has. I try to breathe with him through all of this. But truly I wanted to scream right there with him. I can only imagine what he is going through. My heart aches for my sweet baby O as he screams one more time for the blanket that is already there. Sleep finally came and I reflect on all the positive moments. I have to hold on to what moves us forward. His smile is the song in my heart. Love with all your heart and know you can make a difference in this world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.