What color are you on now, I had asked Owen. “Yellow”, he replied quickly. Wow wow wow I was so excited he answered my random question. He had been playing a game and he was talking about the colors to himself so I started asking him questions and he kept up with the conversation. Sometimes he’s engaged with me talking to him but he isn’t responding to my questions. I love when he follows through with what I’m saying. Today was a little calmer than yesterday but still a little on edge. He went to spend some of the day with his grandma and I know that helped. As soon as we got home he wouldn’t stop asking when he would see her again. And then his questions turned in to him repeating the exact things we’ve been struggling with the last few days. But this time I could see the gleam in his eyes when he saw that he was pushing my buttons. I wish I could hide my emotions from him sometimes but he can read me like a book. I tried everything I could to distract him and I think it helped. We read and sang together. He did better at dinner, eating with his utensils, and eating a lot at that. After dinner was over he had many conversations with Siri. It’s great hearing him say “I want chocolate milk pwease in German” to Siri so he can hear his tablet talking to him. He wanted to listen to it in French, Italian, and Spanish. I’m not sure what other languages he asked for. “Single bells single bells single all the way” was his go-to song for the night and I always love when he sings it. This year feels like he is more connected to Christmas and every time I ask him about Santa or Rudolph he runs to the window looking for them. I tried to let go of all the yesterdays that sometimes weigh heavy on my heart and instead think about all the tomorrows yet to come and know that my boy is growing. I saw many victories today even through the challenges we faced. Never give up. Open your mind to the possibilities of what tomorrow will bring. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.