Sometimes the load feels heavy but the victories will carry us through. Yesterday was a great day and I’ll hold it close to my heart. Owen woke around three and we repeated the dance we had yesterday only it didn’t go as smoothly. I took all his tablets and all the remote controls for the tv and finally let him figure out he needed to go back to bed. And he did. I once again was in and out trying to find the calm to sleep. He was very excited to take his animal cards to his teacher. He told me which animals they were and he was happy about it. Sometimes it takes him a while to process everything. When he got off the bus he immediately said he was going to see his doctor. We had discussed it in the morning before he left and he was very excited. I always try to make him understand these appointments are used to help us and doctors and other people are very important for our health. I don’t want him to be scared of them. Then when we came inside he saw his Spider-Man blanket on the couch. He ran to it touched it and said, “Spider-Man bed treasure.” He then went to his treasure chest and said, “it’s a treasure lock it with a key it’s the best treasure ever.” After we took off his seatbelt and discussed his snack he got his tablet and immediately went to the video of the lady with the animal flip cards that he made his from. How he always finds exactly what video he wants amazes me since he watches so many different videos. I got him a snack and we had a little bit of time before we left for our appointment. Blue pants strikes again. My heart just aches. He was so upset when his doctor didn’t walk in with blue pants. He had the crocodile tears falling and told her she needed to leave. It makes me want to cry too. She wanted to cry. We don’t have answers. She is getting our referral ready for the next steps and hopefully, we can find something that will help calm his mind. I asked him if he could tell me what it is about them and he can’t process that yet so we try to keep moving forward. He was calm the rest of the night but I didn’t try to ruffle our feathers or do things that would upset him. He was asleep very quickly so I know he was extremely tired and I hope he sleeps all night. I pray for peace for my baby. His big laughter is what I’m holding on to. I’m thankful for his smile. Today is a gift and tomorrow is for our victory. Find your strength and keep moving forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.