I went to bed almost immediately after Owen fell asleep last night. I knew it being one of the firecracker nights that there was absolutely no way he would sleep all night. And I was right. I woke several times as the big booms seemed to be directly overhead but fell back asleep. I heard another noise and it was only slightly after one. This time it was him. I heard him getting his tablet and then he came to my room asking for help. I told him he needed to go back to bed or he could get in my bed. Fast forward, neither option was accepted. It’s hard when I can’t get him to interact with me. He’s right there but he won’t respond or he gets mad at me for making a noise or even if I’m moving in the wrong direction. Yet he gets furious when I don’t immediately respond to one of his requests or do what he needs quick enough. I have to remember to breathe. Then he turns and runs to me and says, “wanna hug”. I push forward and I know that in his way he understands. We didn’t get much sleep last night but I got lots of hugs. At least he’s remained calm most of the day except for his tooth that is “loose” but it’s not. A new tooth is growing back in and he has another baby tooth that it is right next to so it may not be long before it is loose. He’s ready to go see his dentist tomorrow so she can “count his teeth” and “pull it”. We do not have an appointment for tomorrow but if we needed to go our dentist would understand. I told him to remind me tomorrow so I could see if we could make an appointment. He is very sensitive to the movement in his mouth and anything out of place causes him to become very concerned. I will see how he is doing in the morning and go from there. Nothing looks out of place but if he gets too fixated on it I will take him because otherwise, he won’t move forward. Some days I can’t believe all the steps it took to get to this spot in our lives. He’s made incredible progress and continuing to grow in leaps and bounds. He is figuring it all out. I had the vacuum in the closet. He knows it’s in there. I’ve always kept his trampoline in front of the door so he wouldn’t go in the closet. The vacuum has always been one of those things that causes a meltdown, sometimes, sometimes not, maybe. I was in the bathroom. I heard a noise first and then his vacuum review voice. I come around the corner and he’s moved his trampoline so he can get the vacuum out. He didn’t quite get it out by the time I got to him but he was quite proud of himself. So I got it out the rest of the way and he was happy. I didn’t plug it in but he went through the entire review that he has watched on YouTube. He likes and doesn’t like the vacuum to be on and off unless he wants me to do it or not do it and then he may or may not be happy if the vacuum does or doesn’t make noise, sometimes. I asked him if he was ready for lunch and he said, “I’m not going to have lunch today.” As I started making my lunch he said he wanted a smoothie. I asked him if he wanted a smoothie or chicken, knowing the smoothie needed the noisy blender and chicken was our happy place. Plus, I knew what a smoothie really meant and he would ask for it again. He wants to make a smoothie because he plays an app where they make smoothies for customers. He listens to it in Chinese. He told me all the ingredients and what they were saying. I think he knows more languages than I can even imagine. We had a very busy day. We ate all day, played lots of games, read together, and I think we both fought sleep at different times. I’m thankful for how far he has come and that today he was happy as a lark. His laughter is what brings me great joy. Our days are not always easy to explain but the love sure is. Never give up on the hope for tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.