We both slept pretty good last night. I would have to say Owen slept better than me but I at least slept through most of the night. When he woke up I could tell he was working through going to grandma’s house again. We got dressed and we both wore shorts. He told me that he wanted to wear “blue pants” after he got dressed. I told him he could wear blue jeans tomorrow if he wanted to. I am always trying to reference them as “blue jeans” now so that he understands that technically there is a difference. He said, “blue jeans” and walked off. This felt like progress though. When we went out to wait for the bus he said, “Ride bus school ride bus home then black tablet.” This was a reference to the tablet he uses at his grandma’s house. I asked him if he wanted to do something after school and he said, “Grandma.” I asked him if he wanted to go see his grandma and he said, “Mommy go bye-bye.” He kept going on about getting a pizza and also getting breakfast. He had all the words but I had no expectations because I knew this was all hard for him. When he goes to his grandma’s house he wants time with her so he always says “Mommy go bye-bye.” I think that is part of what he is processing because he knows if we go out to dinner I don’t necessarily leave so he doesn’t have time to play. I think he is trying to figure it out but it’s the ripple effect that keeps each of these emotions moving forward. This morning he was back to Spider-Man for his Halloween costume. I think I need to find him a new one since his last year is too small. I thought today was going to be the day to go to Grandma’s when he got off that bus. I wasn’t expecting it but thought maybe it would happen. He got off the bus and said, “Dinner with grandma.” He went back and forth about going to Bob Evans, IHOP, or getting a pizza. We came inside and he was still happy about going. He went to the bathroom and off his shorts came. That was that. He wanted his snack and me to put a dress on. Once I did he talked about seeing you on Saturday. Our friend is going to help us try to work through these moments when it is hard for him to leave. He told me today he didn’t have to go to the doctor so I’m thinking he is also working through appointments. I almost insisted we stopped on Saturday but I also thought it was good to just keep moving forward. He was sitting with me watching Halloween videos talking about the channel he watches Mickey at his grandma’s house. I often wonder if I should get cable so he can have that channel. I keep wondering if it would help or cause him to be more anxious. The rest of the night was pretty quiet except for his bathroom adventures and lots of food. Each day is a gift. It’s a lot for him to process but he will get there. Be thankful for all the possibilities. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.