When the routine breaks the sounds of chaos ring. Yesterday didn’t go according to plan. That means today is difficult for Owen. He screams for what should have happened yesterday. His screams didn’t come until today though. He doesn’t know how else to express it. And how do you explain life happens when you have something else planned. Sometimes I have to change my way of thinking and my emotions so that I can handle what’s coming at me from all different directions. He was disappointed yesterday, but today was the makeup day. That, however, comes with its own set of circumstances that we have to push through. Sundays are for church and coming home, preparing for tomorrow, so even when it’s something he wants to do it can cause him distress. And then my emotions need to find their way into a tightly sealed bottle because I want to cry. Summer is coming and this means the routine will be even further off. He’s going to summer school like he did last year, but it’s only a few weeks. It’s still with his same teacher, but at a different school. I have to look at the bright side, he gets to ride the bus and that makes my boy’s day. Today as we were driving home from our adventures it started to rain. This made Owen scream and scream some more. This is the first time he has screamed about the rain. I can’t turn the rain off, I can’t turn the screams off. Do I stop, do I keep going, do I cry. Now to help him understand that rain happens at random times. We’ve been out in the rain many times and no screams. I don’t know why today upset him, but he started screaming “raaaaaaaain” as soon as the downfall begins. It was pretty strong so maybe it startled him. Maybe he felt my emotions about the rain. He’s calm now, happy to be home. And so am I. Today I prepare for tomorrow, trying to stay one step ahead of our emotions. Sometimes in rain, there can be sadness, but watch what blooms when the sun shines. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.