Take Your Thursday

I watched Linus, I mean Owen come to my bed at three in the morning, carrying the blanket over his shoulder yet again. Okay, so why is he waking up again in the middle of the night and now what to do about the blanket. Do I encourage the blanket or do I discourage it. He’s got tons of blankets in his bed and in mine, but now this one blanket is the one he wants. These and other fine questions run on the hamster wheel in my brain all day long. The attachment to a certain item can be hard on both of us. If it is lost or the location of the item is not where he needs it to be our day can spiral quickly. I’m very thankful that Owen hasn’t been attached to many items because of this. However, I also know that it does give him a sense of security and comfort. So the search now begins for a second blanket like the first one so that we have a backup blanket. None of the other blankets compare so far to the large king-size blue blanket that gets dragged everywhere. Then I have to decide if I can find one that compares to the same texture will color matter and should I change the color so that it doesn’t matter. Queen of Overthinking reporting for duty. He has always been fascinated by blankets and has used them for the sensory input he needed. As a baby and small child, I couldn’t put any blankets in his bed with him. He somehow found a way to wrap them around his head. I was afraid to have anything in his bed with him at all. I talked with his doctor and therapists about my concerns. As he got older the doctor told me that it would be fine to start putting blankets in bed. It was at least another year before I put a cover sheet or blanket with him. Now watching him sleep with his blanket those memories flood through my mind again. But I know as he sleeps he moves so much the blanket will quickly be tossed around. Sleep has always been one of those things that I want to help Owen through, but we always seem to struggle with it. He’s very happy today and his smile lights up my world, encouraging me to stay strong. Find your strength, shine your light, and know that you are amazing. Smiles to all and donut daze!