Some days the chaos seems more simple than I can imagine. Other days they go smoothly by. And some days, like today, was a mixed bag of tricks. Owen woke numerous times last night not exactly happy but when we woke for the day he was very focused and gave me the biggest hugs, wanting to lay with me, being very calm. When he was a little more fully awake I said, “I love you buddy”, kissing him on the top of his head. He said, “good morning mommy I love you”. And he quickly followed it with “tablet tablet”. I told him he had to go potty first but then he could have his tablet. He ran off to the bathroom before I could even stand up. From there it was kind of on his timing. He ate some of his breakfast and immediately started asking for his grandma. He was going to spend part of his day with her and he knew it. I started to tell him we would go in a “little bit” but he quickly said it before I could. He knows his schedule and he knows my words. It’s amazing how many phrases I repeat that he repeats right back to me. As the morning wore on I could tell he was tired. I had a feeling that it would delay our departure to grandma’s house even though it was still hours away that we were leaving. Every time I talked about leaving he would run off through the house. He started playing with “penguins in the box come” and I knew that it would be a process to leave the house. Once we finally did he wanted to drive, well at least tell me how to drive. Mostly screaming at me because of the lights. He spent many hours with grandma and when I picked him up the same thing happened, as it always does, the stoplights bother him. I tried a different approach, telling him that if he wants to go anywhere, ever, he better stop yelling about the lights. I explained that they are how we get to go places and that no matter how loud he screamed they were not going to change. I talked over him every time he was about to scream. I kept saying the same things if you scream we won’t be able to go anywhere. I told him that I truly understand the lights are not fun but we had to go through them. He didn’t scream the rest of the trip home and we shall see how the next adventure goes. One day at a time we will grow together and find our way. My smile came in many ways today but I loved when he sat with his tablet and he kept asking Siri to say, “I want to see grandma please in Japanese” and kept the language train going from there. Never give up on the miracle that has yet to happen. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.