Sweet Baby O - Our Autism Journey
Contact Me
  • Home
  • The Daily
  • Paintings
  • Products
  • Church
  • Down This Road
  • Book
  • Podcast

Testing Thursday

6/3/2021

0 Comments

 
Picture
One week into summer break and I’m over it. Breaks are hard. No matter why, no matter when, any and all breaks from the routine Owen loves is hard. I want to cry. And so I did. The more I cried the more he laughed. He can’t process emotions and he doesn’t completely understand how to handle mine. The good news, maybe, is he starts summer school on Monday. But he’s not prepared for it. I’ve been trying to prepare him but I didn’t know all the details until today. Still truly don’t know about the bus but I spoke with his teacher and I know what school he is going to. I told Owen he would be starting on Monday, going over the schedule for the next few days numerous times. He got very agitated, telling me “no school until August”. So now I should come up with a new name for his summer school. He looks at a calendar app every day now. That feels like big progress so maybe he is comprehending when August is coming. Summer school is optional for him so if it is too hard for him to transition to the schedule then I won’t keep sending him. I think he’ll be fine after the first couple of days but it will give me plenty of opportunity to overthink all the options I think I need to overthink. He had therapy today. I wondered how it would go. His behaviors are all intertwining right now trying to find their place. He doesn’t want to go to the potty, ever, stating “no potty today”. It’s hard to think about my nine year old wetting his pants. This is a behavior that we’ve worked very hard through. Too many tears running down my face to even drink my coffee. He does much better with it when his routine stays his routine. Anything outside his bubble causes this ripple effect. His therapy went okay today but they could tell he was struggling. Rays of lights and shadows delight him, dancing around to see them. I’m sure the reflections bring a comfort that I truly don’t comprehend but know he needs. During one of his sessions he kept getting distracted by the lights reflecting off the different surfaces. This is very common for him and he will have to repeat the same actions over and over again until he finds comfort. I laid next to him, waiting for him to fall asleep, praying for comfort and understanding to wash over him. My heart aches for the troubled waters that crash over him when nothing is routine. Tomorrow he will “be with mommy” all day and this in itself is a big adjustment for him because he needs those interactions with people. And tomorrow I will tell him I love him and everything is going to be alright. He’s the one that puts a song in my heart. Find your inspiration and go after your dreams. Smiles to all and donut daze!
0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    Author

    I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.

    Archives

    May 2025
    April 2025
    March 2025
    February 2025
    January 2025
    December 2024
    November 2024
    October 2024
    September 2024
    August 2024
    July 2024
    June 2024
    May 2024
    April 2024
    March 2024
    February 2024
    January 2024
    December 2023
    November 2023
    October 2023
    September 2023
    August 2023
    July 2023
    June 2023
    May 2023
    April 2023
    March 2023
    February 2023
    January 2023
    December 2022
    November 2022
    October 2022
    September 2022
    August 2022
    July 2022
    June 2022
    May 2022
    April 2022
    November 2021
    October 2021
    September 2021
    August 2021
    July 2021
    June 2021
    May 2021
    April 2021
    March 2021
    February 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    November 2020
    October 2020
    September 2020
    August 2020
    July 2020
    June 2020
    May 2020
    April 2020
    March 2020
    February 2020
    January 2020
    December 2019
    November 2019
    October 2019
    September 2019
    August 2019
    July 2019
    June 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    March 2019
    February 2019
    January 2019
    December 2018
    May 2017
    January 2016
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015

    Categories

    All

    RSS Feed