The Possible Friday

When life hands you lemonade you drink it. But when you are handed lemons sometimes it can be overwhelming. You have to keep pushing forward, find ways to make yourself happy, and know that today is a moment in time. Owen has been so happy this week. His smile is contagious, even in my moments of sadness his smile pushes me through those times. I have to remember that he doesn’t always process what is happening in the moment we are in or he gets overwhelmed by the situation. I hear him trying to work through these moments. You can see the thought process as it’s happening and his words are helping him communicate his needs with me more now. I waited years for him to be able to share his thoughts with me. I couldn’t wait for him to be able to tell me his needs. I always ask him questions and I’ve always answered the questions I asked him. Hoping that he would learn the art of conversations and interactions. I wanted him to know that he could talk to me about anything, anytime. I love hearing him talk to people without being prompted. He yells across the street to our neighbor, “hello good morning tell her hello hi hi” and he stands in the same spot jumping up and down with excitement. In these moments I see how far he’s come. But in those same moments I feel anxiousness and a loneliness I can’t even describe. It’s hard to even say that when my sweet baby O runs up to me and says, “I wuv ewe”, but the loneliness still sits there. I know the day is coming, I can feel it, but I want him to tell me how his day went. I want to know if he liked his lunch or if he colored with crayons. But for today I will look at his smile and let it be my guide to happiness. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Find what inspires you and let your world blossom. Smiles to all and donut daze!