Dancing in the living room, thanking God for how the day went, and praying for Owen to go to school tomorrow. We had a really good day. There were a few behavioral moments from both of us and one of us may have shed a few tears but the journey was well worth it. Owen wanted to dance again with me today. I think the strategy was so he could bite my hair but he danced with me. He can read me like a book and he can tell by my emotions, my grimace, and my sounds that I don’t like when he bites my hair. He likes to bite my hair so he can see my emotions, me grimace, and hear the sounds I make. He wants to see my reactions. I never imagined how he would feed off my emotions and I never imagined how hard it would be to try and hide my emotions from him or not say a word when something bothers me. He wanted to dance and it started with his feet on mine again but then he tried to climb in my arms and he pulled my hair. It was the look in his eyes that told me he had a motive. I don’t know how to get behaviors to stop. When I think they are gone they resurface. Like he hadn’t tried to eat my hair in quite a while and then there it was again. Now it’s like ten or more times a day he tries to come bite my hair. Part of these behaviors I know are actions for being out of routine for so long and I hope it will get better when he is back in school. We went to get his glasses replaced. Before we even left he started yelling at me in the car. I didn’t start the engine, telling him we would not go anywhere if he continued to yell at me. He stopped yelling and before I could say anything else he said “sorry mommy”. I told him thank you and that I was very proud of him for telling me he was sorry. We got to the eye doctor’s office and we didn’t have to wait long for them to put his lenses in the new frames. When we got in the car he took his glasses off and I asked him why he did it. He said, “he saw a deer”. I told him that he would see deer better if he left his glasses on. When we got home he didn’t take his glasses off nearly as much as he had been doing so I’m hoping this pair will last longer. He requested “ten chicken nuggets french fries iced tea iced coffee with extra cream no sugar” so we went and got most of what he requested. He won’t drink iced tea and the iced coffee was for me. He ate almost all of it when we got home so I could tell he was feeling much better and his eyes were brighter again. I can tell he still had a little bit of drainage but thankfully he was feeling much better. Siri, Alexa, and Owen were having some very in-depth conversations. He even asked Alexa phrases in Arabic to translate into Arabic, Russian, and Portuguese. This has been a long week and a half for us. Routine means everything to him and school is something he misses more than anything. In his sleep, I heard him saying, “be with mommy”. I know it is on his mind that he isn’t going to get to go to school tomorrow, and I pray he can and have a great day. When we got ready for bed he had to make sure I told Alexa and Siri good night. Even through our few challenges, I count this day as a big victory. Go after your dreams and know that you can do it. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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