To Think About Thursday

The screams came as soon as I turned the bedroom light on. Next, the baby gate was shut, and Owen started shaking it back, and forth. As soon as I started walking to my bedroom, I thought, I should go back to get my phone from the living room. I went to get nightclothes for Owen. I wanted to get my phone so I could use it as a flashlight. I knew turning on his bedroom light would make him scream, but all I had to do was open a drawer, and pull his clothes out. This is one of those moments that I stress over. Turning on a light, in either one of our bedrooms, can instantly send Owen into a meltdown; unless it doesn’t. There are those times when he is fine with me doing it, even then he’ll come running in the room, turning off the light, no matter what I’m doing. It took me a long time to convince him to leave the living room light on without him being upset, and then he was fine with it for awhile. The kitchen, and bathroom lights have always been fine, but the other lights he doesn’t want on; I’m back to trying to convince him sometimes to leave the living room light on. He’s looking through his tiny bus windows to see the light reflecting through them. He’s sleepy, well, we are both more than sleepy. We’ve been up since three; neither one of us that happy about it. He fell asleep relatively easy last night, but I heard him moving in his bed. Tonight’s big topic, however, is Christmas. He asks about it every five seconds, mixed in with “I’m not going to the post office today”, and asking for the bus, his teacher, and his grandma. I told him that Christmas was at the North Pole with Santa, hoping to distract him. Anything that Owen can’t see, or find he now says is at the North Pole. When we went to Cabela’s, after Christmas was over, I told him Santa went back to the North Pole. Now Santa has a lot of things with him. He’s staring at me through very sleepy eyes, with that smile that gets me through my days. Be inspired by the sunshine, dance in the rain, and know that you are amazing. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!