To Tired To Tell Tuesday

Let’s just face it, I’m cranky. The new supplement has been working like a dream to get Owen to sleep, but staying asleep is a whole different ballgame. He got into bed with me and then from there, it was rock and roll. He didn’t fall asleep for several hours. He kept talking about school and his teacher. He moved on to his diaper upsetting him and the blanket being pulled all over the bed. Milk was his next move and at that point, I’m like dude ya gotta go back to sleep. Nights like these don’t happen very much anymore, but when they do it takes a lot for me to process and deal with. I have to stay calm, I have to think through the right answers because the wrong answers will cause more harm than good, and I have to figure out if there is something wrong with Owen or if he can’t sleep for some other reason. There was a span of months, I would say even close to a year, where Owen woke two and three times a night. I am thankful that we aren’t at that stage, but nights with no sleep have me on the edge that this will keep happening. Luckily he fell back asleep and we slept as late as we could, but I dream about the day he is calm through the night, even if he is awake. He woke with a purpose, “school”, but he moved on when he realized he was going to spend the day with “grandma”. I’m counting the days till all his ducks are back in a row, the bus, his teacher, and school. All in all the summer has gone well for us, but breaks in routine, no matter the amount of time are hard on Owen. He thrives on the predictability of his days. And I thrive on him having the comfort of that routine. The world is ever-changing, I get that, but for Owen, the consistency of a schedule helps him get through his days. Unpredictability is not easily explained. Each and every day I’m thankful for his words and his growth. It helps us to keep stepping forward. In the middle of our struggles or those moments that seem never-ending, I remind Owen that he is amazing and can work through these times. And I try to be kind to myself. That sometimes is the hardest part. Through strength and understanding, we can accomplish great things. Walk on the positive side of life and see how your world blooms. Smiles to all and donut daze!