I was so exhausted I barely heard Owen coming to me before he got into my bed. It was a little after one o’clock in the morning. I tried to make very little conversation and I don’t even think it was really coherent whatever I said. He was in the same boat, thankfully. I think he said, “blue bed” and the next thing I know it was after five o’clock in the morning. I lay in bed as long as I could and then finally got up. He slept through me getting up and going to the bathroom. And the important part was I got my coffee. I came back to the bedroom and sat back down drinking my coffee. I finished the whole cup before he woke. I’ll take it. His first words out of his mouth were his teacher’s name. He knew exactly where he was going and he was thrilled. We still had an hour before we needed to start getting ready but it gave him time to get himself going. He was concerned about what I was going to wear for the day and he wanted me to wear exactly what I wore the day before. Sometimes I feel like if I try to push the boundaries it will make all the eggs fall out of the basket. My goal is to keep him calm. Every day I talk to him about choices and how we get to make decisions based on our likes and dislikes. I explain to him that things he likes are different than the things I might like. I try to use examples he can reference so at some point this might help him understand that the entire world cannot wear blue pants. I know he wants order in the chaos around him and seeing the same colors help him justify everything around him. We stood waiting for the bus and he was really pretty calm until the lady at the business unlocked the door. This is the same place he saw them vacuuming before. He could not wait to get in that door and talk to them about the vacuum. I told him he couldn’t go inside because we would miss his bus. Thankfully he came back to stand next to me and shortly his bus came around the corner. When he came home from school his teacher had put a note in his backpack that he had a good day. For this I was thankful. The night went quickly. He stayed pretty calm but was a little upset with me when I couldn’t find the video he wanted by using the voice-activated option. I can’t always remember the words of the videos he wants me to find. I try to explain that he is watching the video and can find videos similar by looking at the person that posted it but he wants to ask by the name of the video. He ate numerous snacks and what seemed like numerous dinners but it was spread out through the night. He fell asleep quickly again and I’m hoping he sleeps through the night knowing he will see his teacher tomorrow. Laughter, love, and light filled our night. I’m thankful for his smile and the joy he brings me. When in doubt pray it out. Know that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.