Routine is so important to Owen but life is not even close to routine. Not one thing about it is routine because as soon as we think every single day can be exactly what we want it to be life happens when you have something else planned. This is not something I can easily explain to him.
We went out to wait for the bus and there was a car that pulled up where he didn’t think they should. He wanted them to leave but the person sat there in their car. It is hard for him to handle when things are in what he considers the wrong place. He needs everything to be in order and a car that interrupts his process is not a car he wants to see.
The bus pulled up and the smile on his face is what makes my heart shine. It is amazing how happy he gets with these moments. As he walked towards the bus he reminded me again that he was going to ride the bus home on Monday. I wish I could find a way to help him stay in the moment. He is always focused on those moments that are ahead.
I picked him up from school and he wanted to go by the burger boy statue. We had a little extra time so we were able to drive by it. We then headed to get him a donut. He wants a donut but he doesn’t want to eat the donut. I got him a donut hole and he didn’t even take it out of the bag. He squished the bag and stuffed it under him. We got to his therapy place and I asked him if he ate it, knowing what the answer was. He said, “yes” and was ready to go to his sessions.
We went inside and he made me a Mother’s Day card with one of his therapists. He did fine with his sessions but once again his focus was not on the moments but on all the future moments to come. I’m hoping that we can find a way to focus more on being calm and in the now.
The night was once again filled with food, future moments, and not wanting to go to bed but he was ready for his Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and especially his Monday that would be different but yet the same. You don't get through life without a story, it's how you choose to write your story that’s important. Smiles to all and donut daze!