How many yawns can you yawn in one minutes time, this and other fine questions come to mind. Sleepless nights after sleepless nights equals a very tired momma. I’m trying not to think about the lack of support special needs families get. I’m trying to instead think of how I can be part of the change to make that a thing of the past. I want to cry a river, wallow in sorrow, and downright be mad, but hey rinse repeat and it puts me back to my original yawning question. One day at a time. I didn’t send Owen on the bus this morning. We had a rough night, no sleep, and he was still a little lethargic, with a side of energy like only my sweet baby O can have. He cuddled with me one minute and then ran around the room the next minute. I didn’t want to rush our morning and I wanted to make sure he felt alright. Still no fevers, coughs, or no new signs of sickness, but I knew he still wasn’t feeling great. He asked all morning to go on the bus even though it was long since gone, go to school, go to grandma’s, go to church, go to gymnastics, go to everywhere he could think of. I finally took him to school a few hours late, but he seemed to be happy when we got there. I’m thankful he loves school and that he wants to learn. I can’t imagine trying to make him go if he didn’t like it. As it is the things he doesn’t want to do are hard for us. I’m thankful that I’m finding activities that he wants to do, like bowling and gymnastics. After watching him at gymnastics the other day I thought about the indoor rock climbing walls. I want to take him to see how he will do. I also don’t want to take him because I know how I will do. I’m scared of heights, he has no fear. I am trying to find activities that not only will he enjoy, but help him to understand boundaries and his surroundings. I don’t feel like he understands depth perception or how his body works in certain environments. Today my hope is that he is feeling better and that he’s having a great day at school. I’m amazed at his growth and the connections he is making to the world. When I hear his voice it’s like music to my soul. Never give up. Let today be the stepping stone for your incredible tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.