One stoplight and it can change your whole day. And then it’s like I want to crawl in a whole hole with Owen’s emotions. I try to remind myself that every single thing in the outside of the car world is up for discussion and worry for him. There are a few houses that are going to be torn down because they are building a new road. The doors were left open on several of them. Every time we go by them Owen gets upset that the doors aren’t closed. I try to find ways to explain this to him but it upsets him further. We went to his therapy appointments today and where it is located gives me two options to get there. The long way that takes even longer now because of construction and the stop and go upsets him or the shorter way that will have construction on it at some point but for now has these abandoned houses. My heart aches for him that he can’t understand. I thought we were making progress when I told him that we had to ignore the lights if he wanted to go anywhere but now it seems we have come full circle. And then it started to rain. One of Owen’s all-time favorite songs is The Wheels on the Bus. The only thing is he likes to sing about the wipers going swish swish swish but he does not like to see the wipers going swish swish swish and he doesn’t want to see any rain on the car. But he loves puddles. He even tells me “I love puddles”. It’s so exciting when he tells me his likes. We sat and ate dinner together. He finally seems like he is eating better since he was sick. We had spaghetti. He even ate it with the fork. I gave him some bread dipped in the sauce and he really liked that. When he was getting ready for his bath he stood in front of the mirror and talked about his eyeballs and eyebrows. I asked him if he could raise his eyebrows. I showed him what I meant and he stood in front of the mirror not realizing he was doing it on his own and took his hand to raise his eyebrows up and down. I’m smiling at the progress. The days are filled with victories and emotions but the most important part is making sure he knows I love him with all my heart. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Celebrate your victories no matter how big or small they are. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.