I am counting last night as Owen sleeping all night. He woke after four, got into bed with me, and then slept until almost six. He was very calm this morning and happy. His routine is slowly coming around to exactly what he likes. It’s hard enough on someone when their routine is interrupted but when routine means everything to him and there is no way for me to explain why he can’t see his teacher or do the things he wants it makes it even harder for him. Plus, when his routine is gone it makes it difficult to convince him to do other activities because he is not sure when they will go away too. I’m thankful for the month of June so he can have some of his routine back and see his teacher but then it will almost be two months before he goes back to school. It is hard on my emotions too. Anytime I ask him to go someplace he says no. Trying to make him go when he says no is hard because it can quickly lead to meltdowns. So for today, I’m thankful he’s in summer school and he is happy. He reminded me again when he woke up that I needed to put his school iPad in his backpack. I love that he is thinking that through and telling me. When he came home from school he was once again so happy. Throughout the night he gave me numerous hugs. He would walk up to me and say, “wanna hug” and reach up to hug me. It made my day. It felt like time was standing still in those moments. Sometimes those hugs were not exactly at the moment I had free but for those hugs, I stopped and I was patient. It felt more like him. He has felt anxious for months so today felt calmer and he was able to concentrate. I hope it continues. He was extremely hungry today. He ate from the minute he came home until the minute he went to bed. And when his head hit the pillow he asked for chicken. I told him he could have it in the morning. It will be interesting to see if he asks for it before he goes to school. He goes to therapy tomorrow so I will be picking him up from school and then off to therapy we go. I’m praying it’s a good day for him. His vocabulary seems to be skyrocketing. He came to me asking me to look up terms on YouTube with the voice activation. I told him he could ask it. There are lots of times he does ask YouTube but sometimes he still comes to me and I have to remind him that he is brilliant and amazing. There are many words he still struggles to say or read but I am beyond proud of how far he has come. He is starting to learn how to sound things out. I remind myself that the doctors told me he might not talk and I told him that he would talk. I reminded him every day that he was amazing and he could do anything if he set his mind to it. I always told him to move stuff around in his brain until he found a slot for the words to come out. Not only does my boy talk but he talks in numerous languages. Never give up on the miracle yet to happen. Keep believing in that moment. Owen fell asleep quickly in my arms and it was wonderful to see him resting peacefully. I hope tomorrow is another great day for him at school and therapy. I’m praying for that full night of sleep as well. Dream big and know that you can accomplish anything if you set your mind to it. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.