I have been trying hard not to cry today. Trying. It has been an emotional rollercoaster ride. It was my Grammy’s birthday. I miss her so much. I wish she could give me some of her wise words. Owen woke at four but came to my bed and told me he wasn’t going back to sleep but he did, thankfully. When we woke up he did not want me to get out of bed. He was upset that I even tried. I told him that I had to get up if he wanted milk and cereal, and I had to go potty. After a moment he let me go. I have to remember the calmer I am the quicker he will become calm again. I got up and fixed him breakfast and he was happy as long as I was sitting. As soon as he realized it was time to get dressed he wanted to sit with me but he kept asking for his teacher. I told him we had to get dressed if he wanted to go. He ran off to the bathroom, that was the first step. Thankfully he let me help him get ready. We headed to the bus stop but he was very concerned with my grey shirt that wasn’t green. The bus came around the corner and he was ready to go. I didn’t want him to miss his last day of school. He will start summer school in a few weeks but this is hard for him not to have routine. Any and all breaks are hard for him. His teacher sent me a message that he had a great day. That made me extremely happy. When he came home from school. I had the requested pink shoes on but he wasn’t happy that I still had the wrong shirt on. The rules become overwhelming for what I’m supposed to do and not do. I don’t always follow all the rules but when it is the difference between a three or four-hour meltdown over the color of pants I’m wearing or a shirt that is wrong I will certainly try to work with him to calm him. I’m hoping that soon we can have more answers and ways to help him. The night was full of him eating continuously. He likes to guzzle his milk and this did not sit well with his stomach. I’m hoping it is from this and not something else but we are going to a follow-up doctor appointment tomorrow from last week so we will discuss it as well. He was in a great mood all night. We sat and talked about his day. He really didn’t answer my questions but I knew a lot of the answers already because of what his teacher told me. He struggle a little bit to fall asleep but he finally did. I pray he sleeps through the night or at least a little later in the morning. I’m hoping he will want to go do some activities this week ahead. One day at a time. I’m thankful for his smile and his amazing gift to make me happy even on a hard emotional day. Make today matter. Find your strength and keep moving forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.