Nerves of spaghetti was pretty much how my day went, followed by hopeful swells of my indecisions and progress for Owen, but we made it to bedtime. He woke a little after five. As early as that is I’m beyond thankful that he has been mostly sleeping through the night. He was in a very clingy mood for most of the day though but also very interactive. He came to me with his tablet, requesting milk, showing me an app, and telling me “no potty today” was going to happen. I do not think at this point my eyes could even open on their own. I’m not sure why I haven’t installed one of those fancy pot filler arms in my headboard that is directly connected to the coffeepot. It would sure help with these early mornings. I got up started my coffee and fixed the requested milk and cereal that I knew he wouldn’t eat right away. When I sat down with my coffee Owen brought his tablet to me. He was playing an app that was like a board game with dice and cards on the screen. He said, “I’ll show you what I got” clicking one of the cards and then he quickly added “whoo whoo.” I realized he thought the word “I’ll” was “owl”. I wrote out the words for him to see the difference. He didn’t understand that “I will” became “I’ll” nor does he probably understand how that works but I still like to go over the steps with him. He then got the car card and he wanted to repeat it with me when I explain that it was two different words and I had him emphasize the D in the word “card.” His speech is improving and wants to learn now. It’s amazing to have these interactions with me. He told me he wanted to take his robot to show his speech therapist tomorrow. After breakfast, we went to get his glasses. I wasn’t sure how this was going to go. I wore camo pants. It took every bit of me convincing myself and him to walk out the door. He kept running to my room to get me blue pants. I told him there weren’t any in there and if he wanted to get his glasses we had to leave. He finally walked out the door. Most of the people were wearing blue pants and the one guy that wasn’t promised Owen he would wear them tomorrow. I was thankful he went along with it. We got home without another meltdown. The rest of the day went about the same. He sat with me many times throughout the day and we played numerous games. He laughed a lot and this makes my heart sing. When we were playing one of his games every time he would click on a letter I would say a completely different object than what was on his screen. He would immediately say what it was. I was glad because he constantly says the wrong thing and I’m trying to get him to understand he has to say what it is or express his real emotions. This is not always easy for him but as time moves forward I think he will understand more. The night went quickly and he fell asleep as soon as his head hit his pillow. All in all, he had a good day. You probably think there is no one else that can understand the struggles that you are facing. You are not alone. We may not be on the same path but that’s why I share this journey, that’s why I talk about all the different aspects. Today I had to remember to breathe a lot. Tomorrow is a brand new day. And we can all move forward with our journey. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.