We All See Wednesday

Some days are like the waves crashing on the rock, nestled back in the distance from our view. Other days the waves come crashing on to shore, but I can handle what is thrown at me. Today is one of those days I want to cry; the waves are pushing me on my own island. Even with all of my emotions, I realized the beauty of where we are at today. My sweet baby O has come so incredibly far. His words, his expressions, his smile, getting bolder, and more interactive every day. Autism is not what I expected. Some days I cry out to God, please give me calm today. Yesterday, as I was thinking and praying I realized again the gifts that my son has given me. Because of him, I am learning to paint. And this has given me a completely new lease on life. I always said I couldn’t paint. But the truth was I couldn’t paint perfection. Owen and I started painting together to help him with his fine motor skills. He has trouble with the motions of using a pen or utensils, anything like that. We do a hand-over-hand method and he helps me paint the backgrounds to our art. Learning through love, the perfection comes from imperfections in our art. We have to learn to reflect our own happiness and know that there is nothing we can’t do if we keep trying. Owen asks me every day to paint. I ask him what he wants paint and he will say “wanna paint a background” or sometimes he will ask to paint a church. When I look at our paintings I see how far we have come and if we can make one person smile through our art then every emotions poured into them is worth it. Last night Owen crawled into my arms, told me he loved me and fell asleep. There is no greater joy than to be his momma. I find comfort in knowing he is happy and he is growing. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Believe in yourself, know that you can accomplish great things, and make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!