When It’s Not Wednesday

“Monday”, Owen proclaimed. I told him, it’s Wednesday. He said it again, and again, adding “grandma pick e me up from schooo” as he went along. His sentence structure is getting stronger, and more fluid every day, but we still have moments where I feel like I am playing Name That Tune with him, because he is humming tones to a song that he wants me to find with his tablet’s voice activated option. Last night he informed me “I’m not going to bed today”, quickly followed by “tomorrow”; mixing this in with “I’m not going to bed until later”. I felt like I was literally watching my son’s transformation to a computer brain with this one phrase. The minutes that lead up to all of this were incredible to watch. He will say, “I’m not going to the post office today tomorrow tomorrow”, because I have told him that we won’t go back. He’ll ask me when, and I’ve said, “tomorrow”, hoping to ease his mind about the post office. It has been causing him a lot of anxiety from the one time we went. I watched him turn that go to sentence into him not going to sleep. I saw the stages of his words developing, and him processing how to tell me he didn’t want to go to bed. It was a big step, and change for him. We didn’t sleep much last night. He woke at some point, got into bed with me, tossing, and turning the rest of the night. Bedtime has been hard for him lately. I try to keep it very routine, but it seems to be anything but routine. I never understood how important routine was. It wasn’t something I focused on, sure there were certain times for everything like school, and work, but the rest of my days were more random. Now I set timers for everything, talk about what we are doing nonstop, and make sure our days flow from one moment to the next. For the love of Owen I’m learning to adapt, and find new ways to help him. Some days feel overwhelming, but I see his smile, and push on. I’m thankful for his growth, and I see so much progress. Never give up. Find your strength, and know that you can move mountains if you set your mind to it. Be bold, be beautiful, be you. Smiles to all and donut daze!