You Aren’t Quite Saturday

Seriously if I could get a break from the emotions that would be pleasant. Owen’s really having a great day. He woke up early but very happy. This morning I woke up very early and sad. I took Owen to breakfast and he did absolutely amazing, eating all of his breakfast and asked for more. I sat there and wanted to cry. I took him to Home Depot for their craft day and he walked in the doors like he owned the place. We got a late start so there were lots of kids already working on the project and I wanted to cry. We came home for a little bit because I really haven’t figured out how to do potty training out in the world. It’s beyond overwhelming to me. I need to be prepared for how he will react to public restrooms. The lights, the people, the hand dryers, and everything else I can overthink about. But I have to be prepared. I’m not. And yet here is my little amazing boy growing and thriving and I’m emotional on the sidelines. You wait for the other shoe to drop and for the calm to hit the fan, spiraling out of control. We went to the coffee shop, bowling, and then grandma’s. No accidents. We came home and a lot of running to the bathroom but almost the entire day without an accident, until right before bedtime. I’m still going to count this as a very successful day. Now to figure out how to make overnight potty training success stories happen. He doesn’t make it through the night dry most nights but he gets confused changing between underwear and training pants. Where’s the solution. I know it will come. Today he did amazing. Today I was successfully hard on myself every chance I got. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Learning to be kind to your own soul can be one of the hardest lessons for all of us. Know that you are important and that you matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!