You Think Tuesday

Two o’clock in the morning is a fine time to talk about wanting to go to school, according to Owen. He was ready to go. I had to convince him that it was still nighttime, and we needed sleep. When it was time to get up, neither of us really wanted to do it. And one of us was a little more cranky about it. The lights have really become a focus for Owen, especially after our lights were out for hours, after someone hit a pole, a few weeks back. Now, not only does Owen want certain lights on, and certain lights off, at varying times throughout the day, he wants to make sure we actually have lights. In the car, as we are heading home, he will start saying, “turn de lights on”, and we are still miles from our home. I haven’t taken Owen to the post office in approximately six months, but this is his focus, as well; almost daily he asks about it. He holds onto these moments that had a hold on him. I’m thankful he can tell me enough for me to understand what is upsetting him. These moments still cause his frustration, and strife. I try to distract him; I don’t want him to go into meltdown mode, because of them. It’s hard staying one step ahead of something that you’re not sure is even going to happen. And then sometimes, I unknowingly start his fixation on something again. He will move on from the moment, and a word that I’ll say may trigger the memory all over again. We have been singing The Bear Necessitates a lot lately. It seems appropriate for our days. Owen will start off, “ohhh”, pausing for me to sing. If I don’t respond right away, he does it again; sometimes moving as close to me as he can, so I’ll know my cue. “The bear necessities the simple bear necessities forget about your worries and your strife”, singing the words he wants to hear, knowing that I’ve probably messed up a few of the words. Today, I’m trying to let yesterday go, focusing on the moments of happiness, and growth. Find what makes you happy, and go after your dreams. Smiles to all and donut daze!